After
his mother:
cog:
But I’ll tell you what’s worse, and this is, I don’t know what you went through, but I watched my mother die for about, I didn’t uh,
this was this was right at the end, and it must have been about a straight
eighteen hours just sitting by the bed and waiting and waiting and waiting, and
the, that whole, well... and then you go away and the nurses come in and take
all the shit away, all the tubes and the drivers and stuff, and the little
prop-up toilet thing on the floor, and all
that, and you go back in and she’s, that’s it, you know, and then the
funeral and everything, or cremation or whatever, but the worst thing about it,
the very worst is that hmm mm
coughing
and swallowing
cog:
it’s that you get used to it, even when, you know, whatever loss you
experience, you get used to it, you
actually just adapt, and you’re not
even conscious of that, and that’s
fucking awful.
and
(eventually) after ache1 and antler both:
cog
(telephone): You are being a prick
about this. Your life is not over. What’s the point in, what’s the point in,
in... All you’re doing is killing yourself,
you’re not... You think that’s what she
would have wanted you to do, you know, if she can, if right now, what do you
think
sighs
cog:
You have to live Skunk. There’s no
shame in that, there’s no shame in you living again. It’s not your fault that
she, that she died, that that that, that they
died, and if you’re not gonna live,
then you should, why don’t you just
fucking kill yourself, do it now,
kill yourself now instead of all
this...
